Aunt Judi,
The last few years of your life were hard and I hate how lonely you must have felt without Uncle Henry and then Walter. I also hate how the dementia was stealing the proud and independent woman that you once were. I am glad that the Ellingstons were able to ease some of that loneliness for you by taking you up to Arkansas, but it did come at a price for us by not getting to say goodbye. I am sorry that we were not able to step up and care for you due to my dad's struggle with dementia and me having my hands full with a young child and older kids with mental illness. I carry a lot of guilt for that.
When I was a kid, I have to admit that I thought you were very strict and sometimes even mean. I remember how you disliked the way I would sit and listen to the adult conversations instead of playing with Walter and Brian. I remember how we were not allowed to sit on the beds at your house. I also remember getting a spanking and sent to bed because I told on Walter for hitting me at the park, but I do have good memories too. You were good at doing my hair and always bought me my favorite perfume for Christmas! You also talked my mom into letting me try a strawberry daiquiri one year when you came to visit us in Kansas City. You could also be funny and even silly when your mood was right. I always admired you for completing your education and being a career woman.
As I got older, I came to understand you better. I think you would get stressed because you wanted things to be a certain way and it caused you anxiety if it was not. I understand because I can relate. I also believe that you mellowed some with age. By the time I had kids, you treated them very differently. My kids all thought you were nice, fun and very giving.
I hope you have found peace in death and have been reunited with Uncle Henry and Walter. I love you and will miss you dearly!!
Love,
Mellanie Egleson Thorp